My skin care products

When I was a child, I have never really cared about healthy skin routines or products that are suitable for you. In a child’s perspective, obviously, that is not the first thing that runs through our mind. Typically, I would just sleep even without washing my face and when I do get the chance to wash my face, I would just use a body soap. Until I hit puberty, I started getting blemishes and pimples like a normal teenager, I also started to feel self-conscious about it. So I started using different skin care products advertised on the tv that are affordable, but these products never worked. However! That did not stop me to explore what other products can do, so here are some of the products I now used that made my skin better!

Skin clearing products

Here is a list of my essential skin clearing products I would highly recommend to people who are struggling with pimples. These products are made especially to those who are prone to it.
There was a time when I did not care about my skin to the point I started getting pimples myself and the rest is history. But then after using these products, it made such a huge difference. I only started using these products properly at the end of the year 2016. I have used these products religiously ever since which is why these products worked for me. Although I recommend these products to everyone, we all have our own skin types and these products may not be compatible with everyone who will be using this. It just depends on how your skin will react, but first, give these products a try and give it some time for it to work and be patient with it.

  1. The body shop Tea tree skin clearing mattifying toner:
    Before using this product, make sure that you have properly cleansed your face. Use a cotton pad and put at least 2–3 drops from the toner and gently wipe any excess dirt around your face.
    Sometimes, washing our face with cleanser is not enough, to properly get rid of the leftover dirt, we need to clean it properly with toner.
    What’s good about this toner it is not irritating to skins that are prone to blemishes, it does not leave my skin dry at all but rather makes it softer. Also, I liked how it did not react badly with my skin after the first week, I felt as if my skin has already improved through using this.
  2. The body shop Tea tree Anti-imperfection daily solution:
    Usually, I would put this on in the morning and when I use a minimal amount of makeup. This product was definitely useful for me since it did help prevent my skin from breaking out. One of the benefits of this product is the fact that it has a nice scent, and it is not oily to your face.
  3. The body shop Tea tree oil:
    We all have gone through that moment when it’s bothersome to have a spot/pimple the night before a special occasion. For situations such as that, I would recommend this product too. A drop would be enough for that one annoying spot, and it would help lessen the inflamed part. This product is also great for drying out the spot so by the next day or two it will be gone. It is also a great size for traveling. So when you have a bit of an emergency, this will come in handy.
  4. The body shop Tea tree mattifying lotion:
    The mattifying lotion is basically just a fancy term for a moisturizer, and as fancy, as it sounds it is really good too. Like I said if your skin is prone to spots or blemishes, this moisturizer is the one you are looking for. I have tried a lot of moisturizers but this is definitely the one I will be using for a long time.
  5. The body shop Tea tree skin clearing clay mask:
    Our face is like our body, the body gets tired from working and we will need relaxation or a massage to at least get rid of the fatigue and ease our minds from stress. It is the same with your face, your face also needs some special treatment and you won’t need to go to a fancy spa or derma clinic just to get that beauty treatment. You can just easily use an affordable product from the body shop which is the tea tree skin clearing clay mask. I would use this once or twice a week at least and each time I use it, it leaves my skin clearer and softer.
  6. The body shop Drops of youth:
    It is a unique gel-like water liquid care, normally I would use this after cleansing my face at night. So after using a toner, I would use this on my face before I go to sleep. Your skin will be smoother and replenished when you wake up in the morning.
  7. The body shop Himalayan charcoal purifying glow mask:
    This is probably one of my favorite products from the body shop, which is the Himalayan charcoal purifying glow mask. When I first got this, I would use it every other day. But when my face improved I would just use it twice a week at least. It might sting a little when you use it but once it’s dried out, the stingy feeling is gone too. Although it might be a little painful and you may think that it is irritating your skin? It’s not! I tell you. Bear the sting because, in the end, it’s worth it! Your face will feel softer and clearer.

Face wash / Cleansers

  1. Biore charcoal oil control scrub (Night)
    My face is very oily that is why I love this product because it really does cleanse my face and it does not leave my skin oily. Since I’m the type of person who loves to wear makeup whether it is heavy or not. This cleanser deeply cleanses my face and I like the fact that it never irritated my face as well. My skin is very sensitive to products that is why I’m very careful with what I use. So if you’re just like me, maybe you can give this product a try as well.
  2. The body shop vitamin C- Daily glow cleansing polish (Morning)
    Sometimes we have bad mornings, or we wake up with a tired face. That is why I chose to use this product in the morning because it makes my dull face have a bit of glow and it gives you that squeaky clean fresh feeling after use.

Korean beauty products

I wanted to explore other products hence why I decided to try Korean products as well as I heard from many sources that their products have done wonders to their skin. I have always admired how their skin glows and I’ve wanted to achieve a glass like glow skin.

  1. Its Skin, 10 WH effector with arbutin:
    This is probably the first product I have tried from them and so far, It has been giving me a positive result with my skin. After 1–2 weeks of using this product, It made my skin even softer. It’s supposed to brighten skin and correct any uneven skin tone. But so far it only made my skin softer, It will probably take longer than 1–2 weeks for it to work. If you want to get the best results you need to use it religiously and be consistent about it.
  2. Misha Black Ghassoul peel off nose pack:
    It is one of those peel off nose pack to get rid of white heads. This product is definitely worth a try as it is not that irritating to your skin, and it is very affordable. What I like about this is I can also apply it to some areas of my nose that is not reach by a normal nose pack. So basically the corners of my nose and also the tip as well. I can also use it to some areas around my face which are above the chin and some areas around the cheeks as well. It may hurt a bit but the pain level is bearable.
  3. Misha Time revolution white cure
    This product is supposed to brighten up your face and also to make your skin look softer too. I would usually use this in the morning or as a base for my make up. Basically, my moisturizer, what I like about this product is the fact that it also did not irritate my skin but made my skin even softer. You will also love the smell, and it gives out relaxing scent. After using this product for a while, it made my skin look brighter compared to what I looked like last year, this also helps your uneven skin tone and any dark patches/spots around your face.
    This may be a bit expensive compared to the other two products I suggested before but it is definitely worth a try as well.

List of face masks:
-G9 chocolate Milk Bomb Mask
-G9 strawberry Milk Bomb Mask
-Black Therapy
-Innisfree (Lime)
– Innishfree (rose)
-Innishfree (Manuka honey)
-Green Tea nose pack

 

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To the future me.

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Dear, future me.

It is undeniable that you are not impeccable. You are a person who made mistakes.
A walking jeopardy. Like a ticking bomb waiting for an outbreak.
Your words can gash through the heart and it will sting for a while. Because you believe in the saying “The truth hurts but it will set you free”. The sound of your laugh is like a rambunctious roar of a lion that can echo to the next town, yet like a contagious disease in this vicinity.

A charm like no other, not only the exterior but beauty on the inside.
You own a heart bigger than the universe and a sentiment sweeter than candy.
No wonder you had your emotions crushed a countless times, because you are a forgiver.
Someone that never ceases to give chances, because you anticipate that one day these people will change for the better.

But they didn’t
They never did.

However, Do not lose hope!

Because..
You are tough and fearless.
You have overcome many battles in life that are meaningless.
So do not think of yourself any less.
Because let me tell you. You’re the best.

 

 

My true love

Just like a normal teenager, I have been through relationships that I would rather forget. Like those hideous childhood pictures, you would want to keep concealed in a box till the end of time. It’s not because of the fact that its embarrassing but rather filled with memories that still leaves a throbbing pain in my chest.

Falling in love was not as joyful as it seems.
To me? It was more like a tragedy.

I would never have thought that I would end up in a relationship that would leave a puddle of tears on my pillows every night, then wake up the next morning to find it dry again and act like it was nothing. It was difficult for me to pretend that I am happy every waking day when in fact my heart is bleeding. Honestly, I even had suicidal thoughts as I felt like I wasn’t being appreciated nor loved at all.

The relationship we had was not healthy.
There was no trust in the relationship, and even when he would ask for forgiveness It was easy for me to say “Yes, I forgive you” but It was so difficult for me to say “Let’s forget about it”. It’s like getting stabbed over and over again with the same wound you had last time. That’s what betrayal felt to me.

I was so consumed with the idea of him changing and that is why I never left. I was patient and my head was brimming with hopes and dreams that maybe one day he will be the person I want him to be for me.

However, this post is not about my past failures and experiences in relationships. I am writing this to tell you about how I found my “true love”. You may wonder who this lucky person may be? Before we get to that part, let me tell you how.

It was when I lost myself in the process of creating the ideal person he wanted me to be. It was when I felt like I was not being loved enough. It was when I felt all alone in a crowded room. It was when I couldn’t even love myself anymore.

I would immerse myself in the thoughts of how he lied, how he took me for granted and I would question myself “Am I not good enough?”. My mind was being poisoned with doubts and I didn’t realise that It was the devil telling me I wasn’t good enough.

But that was back then before I met him. After that, everything changed.

I learnt to love myself because he loved me first.
Despite my flaws and imperfections, he never left my side. He accepted me for who I am, and he never gave up on me even when I would push him away. He healed my broken heart and my broken life.

He is called Jesus.

He is my true love.
He will never forsake me.
He never did, and never will.

 

 

 

 

Serena

Once upon a time, there lived a young lady named Serena who lived in a tiny shack by the sea, in a small town. Her skin was fair, white like snow and her refined black hair was darker than the night. Nevertheless, her emerald colored eyes have what enticed Sebastian that day. He was mesmerised when he saw her; that moment he fell in love. Little did he know about the blizzard patiently waiting to devour his life.

Behind that perfection, she was carrying a heavy burden. She was cursed by a witch that she would turn into a siren whenever the sun set. Sebastian was luckier – he was born into a wealthy family where he was raised in the palace with a silver spoon in his mouth. Servants would clothe him with white garments and fine linen. He was surrounded by the tenderness of young women for they loved his golden blonde hair and blue, topaz colored eyes.

In the midst of the night sky – where there were no apparent stars but a thief, of which captured the sun’s rays – Serena cast a long shadow. He saw her, wandering upon the sand. But those elegant strides soon disappeared. He could only hear the delicate collision against the velvet like current. Silence. As he turned with regret and wonder, another delicate collision could be heard; little did he know it was her legs pressing against the flowing water of the ocean. her legs would gently disappear into the foams of the ocean, her legs would then miraculously transform into a tail of a fish, and at dawn, she would eventually return back to normal. This was her curse.

Later on, Sebastian found Serena lying unconsciously on the beach naked where she seemed injured. Serena was covered with blood which escalated his anxiety of which he felt despite the lack of familiarity of who she was. He hurriedly carried her in his muscular arms and took her to the palace with him; she needed help. At the time Sebastian had a mixture of emotion, he was feeling overwhelmed but he was also consumed by his inquisitiveness of what had occurred that unforgettable evening the night before when she had vanished into thin air.

As they reached the palace Sebastian yelled for some help. His voice resounded throughout the halls and broke the peace of that morning. After hearing the voice of their master, the servants replaced their melancholy expressions with urgency as they scattered rapidly to their master’s presence. The servants were in shock and their thoughts were filled with confusion. Nonetheless, they covered her shriveled body with robes and wiped the stains of blood that were dotted around her skin. They carried her to a comfortable bed so she could rest.

The rays of the sun awakened Serena in a discreet room. She wondered how she got there. Her eyes moved across the room in the hope that she might have some familiarity but she could only recall the night she was at the beach. Suddenly she heard heavy footsteps coming from the hall which stopped the minute they reached her door. They were whispering but she could not quite understand what they were possibly talking about, but she knew right away through the penetrating tone of their voice it was not something pleasant. Then a man’s voice stood out through the rigorous whispers. She felt safe after hearing a familiar voice but she couldn’t possibly discern who it was. The door opened and there was a man wearing a fine garment smiling enthusiastically as he walked slowly towards her direction. He said “Hello, my name is Sebastian. I found you unconscious this morning near the shore”, Serena did not really know how to respond as she did not expect anyone to save her, the momentary unconsciousness that she had experienced was almost like a daily routine for her. Yet, how could she possibly explain this to him? However in that soundless room, you could hear every beat and thump of her heart the instant their eyes met. Only then did she know that he would be her next…

Serena then noticed that her skin around her arms was beginning peel away and her fins were appearing. Sebastian did not seem to notice as he was so fixated at looking into her eyes, however, he starts to notice a stench – like a dead body decaying. Urgently Serena tried to hide her arms with the sleeves of her robe. Then, she distracted Sebastian by pointing out the window pretending she saw something hideous. Sebastian submissively looked out the window like a faithful pet dog but he thought it was odd as he didn’t seem to see anything.

Serena decided that she would go home. She wanted to stay longer but she couldn’t possibly let Sebastian know what a monster of a person she was. So Serena went home carrying her sorrow on her despairing shoulders. Sebastian, on the other hand, was also feeling dejected and the curve in his smile turned upside down. He felt like he had lost one of his most valuable jewels. While he watched her walk away from the palace he decided to chase her with the hope of meeting her again – one day. Serena could feel her cheeks burn as it reddened liked a full ripe apple as she was flattered and so she agreed to his offer and said that they will meet again at the next full moon. They would meet again at the beach. Their place.

The moment Serena arrived she was overwhelmed with ecstasy. She had once again successfully found her very the last target. She would finally fulfil her destiny of immortality and become human without going through the anguish of old age. The curse that was cast upon her haunted her for years, like a chain attached from which she wanted to break free. The only way out of this misery was to find the one that would willingly surrender his love just for her.

Sebastian was the one.

Without a doubt, he was already in love with her despite being oblivious of her true colours. For the last 200 years, she has been targeting different men so she could achieve the youth and immortality she was looking for. The only cure for the spell that was cast upon her was a man’s true love but unfortunately, Serena failed to acquire this until she met Sebastian. But there was an irony to this curse. She was falling in love. Serena however, valuing youth and immortality over love, patiently waited for the next full moon to come. She prepared the equipment she would need; a golden dagger with a devilish carving of a tail at the handle.

Only when she noticed that her hair was starting to turn white and fall out, did she realise that the remedy she’d been taking was wearing off. So she took her one last shot to the next full moon.

It was the night of the full moon and at the same place where they first met. In his eyes she was the most beautiful jewel he had ever seen in his entire life, she was wearing a white long dress, glistening like a diamond. Sebastian slowly walked toward her. She realised how fine looking he was. Could she do what she needed to do? Sebastian filled the empty spaces between her hands with his and Serena could feel her throb once again but she ignored it and instead she focused and what she desired the most.

Beauty and youth.

Serena lead the way towards the sea; without even realising Sebastian was already sinking at the deepest end of the cave as Serena dragged Sebastian down to a cave under the sea.

As they got to the cave, it was bizarre, macabre even. At the centre, there was a table made out of stones where Serena laid Sebastian down. She took the dagger that she hid in the pocket of her dress where she attempted to aim at Sebastian’s heart. Her desire to become human, immortal, beautiful and young was stronger which surpassed whatever attraction she felt for Sebastian. So she aimed straight at his heart and stabbed him in desperation. She took the chalice that was on the counter and she collected the blood that was dripping off the table. She began to drink the bittersweet blood. Despite her hideous smirk, her misery failed to conceal itself. She had killed one she loved. She would be alone forever. And that I suppose, is the real curse.

Abortion should be banned at all costs

Abortion. It has always been a hot topic that causes controversy, brought to light through the recent debate in Northern Ireland. Some officials have recommended for a legalisation of abortion in certain circumstances; for instance, abortion is allowed if the foetus has a lethal abnormality. In my opinion, I highly disagree with this recommendation and think abortion should never have even been considered to be legalised. Yet, as a 21st-century woman, this opinion is viewed as highly controversial; anti-feminist even. We live in a generation where almost anything is possible. As time goes by we learn and improve, which is why there is a high probability that abortion is not the only solution to society’s difficulties.

Regarding the recent issue in Northern Ireland, some women are seeking approval for abortion because of rape, incest or serious malformation of a foetus. This is indeed a severe incident and I empathise entirely with this appalling situation. Obviously, this issue is not an easy one; the solution is not obvious. However, as a woman I believe we have other options besides abortion. The grief and anger should not be thrown at the child. If we take a chance by accepting the child we might learn to love the child – it could be the joy that will cure the pain that they have been put through.

Abortion is the process of terminating a pregnancy. It leads to the death of an unborn baby. One in three women between the ages of their 20-24 years old will have an abortion in the UK. These women are old enough to be responsible for the journey of motherhood and yet they choose the path where their conclusion is abortion.

Now wait” I hear you cry “what about if a woman who was raped and she was unwilling to carry the child that will remind her of the nightmare!” Let us always remember this: the child is not at fault and they don’t deserve to take the blame for a mistake they didn’t do. There is always a rainbow after a storm; the child could be a blessing in disguise, your bundle of joy. Although there are explanations as to why victims would want to proceed with abortion in my point opinion it is not right to sacrifice a pristine child’s life for another person’s desire. Abortion is not the only key to the door you want to unlock there are other options and people should not decide on abortion from the offset.

Many religious leaders still don’t approve with the legalisation of abortion in other countries because it is something that should not be easily authorised. We do not have any right to do so because we create life. But we were not the ones who gave life. Why do we choose who we can deliberately kill? A foetus is still a human being that is entirely feeble, fragile and faultless. Around the world young women and girls are easily deciding on abortion which they shouldn’t be as there are far better options. There are a lot of couples that can’t have the opportunity to have children. By giving the child up for adoption rather than abortion could also help couple such as these. Think about it – you could turn a mistake into a gift.

In the UK, each year about 200,000 abortions is carried out which also means the same amount of innocent lives are lost. Take Lucy Barker. At the age of 21 she had an abortion due to financial difficulties. She wanted to graduate and get a good degree. However, she was careless with her partner as they were lax with using protection and they had unprotected sex like so many University students. It was their choice to have unprotected sex. They were consenting adults and, therefore, they should have been adult enough to take responsibility for their actions. Therefore, they are at fault for doing so and they should be accountable for their own mistakes. They have their own free will and they are at an age where they are capable of making the right decision in a dilemma yet they took the wrong resolution–abortion.

Hold on.” I’m listening “what if the mother’s life is in danger and the child may have the disability when it’s born?” I suppose from some people’s perspective they would agree to this circumstance as it could save the mother’s life and also could prevent the child from suffering as well. Again, this reminds us that there is no easy answer. But life is full of surprises; we don’t know what the future holds. Technologies progress all the time and we discover different treatments to illnesses that we assumed we would be incapable of curing. When my Uncle was born with down-syndrome in the 1950s, the nurse pronounced he would never be anything more than a ‘vegetable’. What if my grandmother had aborted him? He would never have grown up to be the wonderful person that he is.

Think again: should we allow abortion in our society? From my perspective, we need to reflect on our actions and consider how we handle our decisions. In my opinion, the government in Northern Ireland needs to think carefully about legalising abortion. I understand that this is not a simple area of science and morality, in fact, it somewhere where science and morality seem to clash. There is no easy answer. But each and every one of us deserves to live our lives to the full. Everyone demands a chance at life, no matter how bleak that might seem from the offset.

A spontaneous expedition 

For starters this mini trip to Majorca was not really planned, let’s just say it was a “Last resort”. My friends and I were thinking of going with other people to Interrailing. But the people were taking a long time booking and the prices were also getting higher each day that goes by. So my friend and I decided to book a trip to Majorca instead. No plans whatsoever, I didn’t even hesitate as I was also desperate to get away from everybody. I just wanted to find solace in another alienated land. At the time, the stress from my A-levels was eating me alive and I was also going through a difficult time sorting my relationship with the people around me. So after paying for everything and all the bookings were sorted, planes, shuttle buses, accommodation etc. I still did not feel any excitement or sort whatsoever. However when that day finally came (1st of July 2015) I could feel the joy and my overwhelming emotion flowing through me. The excitement rushing in me was magical. My friend and I were also late we through we will miss the plane but luck was on our side.  
Luck on our side 



I guess luck was indeed on our side at the time. At first, my friend and I were having troubles managing our budget for Majorca as we did not bring enough money. My budget then was only €300 for 8 days and our hotel deal was also self-catering as we thought it would be cheaper if we eat outside rather than eating at our hotel. However when we got to our hotel the manager gave us an offer. For 2 nights and 3 days, we will be staying at their other hotel which is closer to the town, where the city life is. There will be breakfast and dinner in those days we are staying as well. My friend and I just looked at each other in shocked, and asked the manager “Do we have to pay?” And he simply answered, “No darling, It’s our promotion”. Right away we accepted his proposal although we had a millions of questions in our heads like “Why are they doing this?” Or “Is this their way of abducting Young British women for prostitution?”. Well, we were desperate too, we only thought of this kind of questions after accepting the offer. Who would say no to anything free these days anyways? Unless you’re the Kardashians, I mean saying yes to something free would hurt their ego. When we arrived at their hotel I looked around and saw an offer which says “Internet 3 dias por €12” so I thought that’s cheap and decided I’ll get it. I went to ask the Manager but she told me I don’t have to pay and she will just give it to us for free. For those 3 days, we simply got everything free. Lucky right?

Life at Magaluf




In those 3 days we had a taste of their city life, but to be honest there wasn’t really anything special when we got to the actual town, where we found people our age and where the restaurants were at. I was more excited about seeing different sceneries, the beaches not just a week of getting drunk in this foreign place. For 3 days I did not quite enjoy the town itself but I loved the company of my friend who would say yes to anything I would want to do. I was still quite new to the place and since I was the older one I had to lead the way and be the mature person. Remembering directions were easy to me that’s why we never got lost as I was quite good at remembering the way. We also went to the beach that was packed with a lot of people. I was genuinely disgusted with the dirt loitering around the waters of the beach. That’s when I lost my appetite of swimming, so instead we decided to just swim in our hotel pool.

Santa Ponca

 


After 3 Days we finally moved back to our actual hotel, although it was further compared to the previous one, I guess this hotel was better as it’s away from everything else and it does give you some alone time for yourself. The only thing that was difficult about the hotel is the fact it takes 30 mins to walk to the bus stop, waiting for the bus will also take a while which is, at least, 10-15mins and travelling from Santa Ponca to Magaluf will take 30-40mins as well. It may sound horrible as it seems to be wasting time travelling but I guess my friend and I did enjoy those long walks as we were able to get a closer look at the place itself.

Beauty of an estranged Land

 




Compared to Magaluf the beach at Santa Ponca is way cleaner, the water is crystal clear that you could literally see varieties of fishes roaming around the ocean. One thing I learnt is the place was also so open that we even did “Pool hopping”. We basically went to different pools of varieties of hotels around the place. They won’t even kick you out and they would just think you’re one of their customers honestly. The local people were also kind hearted, and of the things I won’t forget is how the lady at the shop gave me free plasters for the cuts all over my legs. A Little act of kindness like this actually made my day.

The beach was so beautiful I never got tired swimming every single day. It may sound ridiculous but I even bought myself some goggles so I would be able to clearly see underneath the waters. I was not a good swimmer myself but one thing I learnt on this trip is I was able to overcome one of my fears. Nothing will happen if you won’t do anything of your fears, so I took the opportunity and tried to swim even though I was scared to death. I thought we would all die one day, and why not make the most of it right?

Mini night trips

  

  


I really did enjoy this trip although there were a few problems along the way. I learnt how to be independent especially managing your own budget so that you will have enough money to last you for the whole week. I knew that I didn’t even have enough to last me for a week so my friend and I actually decided to buy our own ingredients at the market so we can make our own food at our hotel instead. Trust me it worked! We were actually able to save up some money, not just that but I was also able to buy souvenirs for my family and friends.  One of the things I loved in this small town (Santa Ponca) is the fact that they have their own nightlife as well, it may not be as busy as the one in Magaluf but I preferred this nightlife. I guess we were able to have a time for ourselves. Although we had a try of the nightlife at Magaluf for a few times, yes I have to admit it was fun but there were also traumatic experiences such as having no place to stay at 3 AM because your friends have the keys and you have lost them along the way. However, I preferred the night life at Santa Ponca, not just about the drinking life but more like watching the people trying their hardest to make a living as well as showing off their talents and passion for art itself. Overall it may sound disastrous but thanks to this trip it gave me the opportunity to experience a variety of things in life.

When I fell in love…

When I was just a little kid, I was so enthusiastic about falling in love. It seems like an amazing thing to think about, seeing couples walking around town hand in hand with a shining bright smile on their faces. Kissing in public like they have no care in the world. Everything about love when I was younger was so perfect and jubilant at the time. Maybe due to the fact that I was still young and naive, I didn’t fully understand what love really meant.

But now I do, and sometimes I wish that I am still that young and naive girl wearing her pigtails in her favourite pink silk dress. Love is indeed the most wonderful thing, it’s capable of making you feel different emotions. I guess I was brainwashed by my cherished Disney films. They made it seem like love is just around the corner and there is always a happy ending. But there is no such thing as happy ending unless you’re lucky.

When I fell in love. It was like receiving your first birthday gift, it was something fresh and exciting. I thought it felt really wonderful to have  someone in your life that loves and cares for you, it felt good. But then I didn’t expect that love could also hurt you as much as it brings you happiness. To the point that you would even lose your appetite with your favourite dish or how everything  seems dull to you even in a lovely weather. How ironic right? Back then Love was like a dream that I didn’t want to end but now I wish that when I go to sleep I will just wake up like it’s just one my biggest nightmares and eventually forget like it never happened.